Brain Chasms

you cannot live this way without finally choosing..... it's safe not to decide-to wait it out-- until conditions become more favorable for deciding-- right now it is raining without hesitation-- the earth, flowers,and summer trees are getting rained on-- whether or not they ask for it... one cat on my lap purrs, the radio plays folk; dreams, by now have long vanished from this morning's cerebrum... another cup of coffee sipped- trying to cull a more long term memory-- day dreaming the start of summer: a dancer at eleven- how the lush rain scented green brings me there-- not the business of psychotherapy- or pharmacology-- but the gift of time's blessing-- noticing the cypress in the yard has shot up an entire story in the breath of time living here-- as the pine in the garden, now hip high.. began with a single branch, and a prayer